Stop

I should stop obsessing about you.

You don’t even know me and you don’t even know I exist. Watching you from afar hurts. I know that I can never be with you but still I try. I cannot contain myself anymore. I try and try yet you still push me away. Why won’t this stop, I am just hurting myself, hurting myself for gazing and adoring this beautiful angel before me.

But this made me realize, I am obsessing about you but is someone obsessing about me? The way I care for you, is someone doing that for me? I think about you everyday, but is someone thinking about me too?

I should take care of myself. Move on and live a better life without you.

Ciao, ______.

My first post

I was never good at explaining things. I never really was. And here I am, trying to create a blog. And I would say that my purpose would be this: practicing my nonexistent writing skills.

When I talk and try to explain things to most people, they have this expression where I am pretty much sure that they are either confused and did not understand anything at all, or they just don’t blatantly care. Yeah, funny as it is, and ironically, I am a Communications major.

After all, the reason why I decided to take Communication as my major is because I am pretty good in English, or I thought I was. But when I met all my classmates, darn, they were all good too. But the majority of them took Communications because they don’t know what to major or their parents chose it for them. Therefore, we are the undecided bunch.

But in the long run that almost reaches to the end of our university life, (no, we are not yet graduating) we survived the difficulties that encompassed us. It has been three painful and confusing years, and it still is, and it will still be. New Year as it may be, we still have the same routine. Maybe I will elaborate our routine later in a separate post (yes, it is that remarkable that it needs its own space) if my lazy bone wont tickle.

To end this all, maybe this place is just a secret sanctuary I created to release all the tensions I’ve been feeling lately.